Extremely thought provoking. It also mentioned the fact why I had created the blog. 'Because there was no one listening' and thus we seek companionship from machines.

It pains me to be able to relate to the song above. My relationship isn't suppose to be like this. Or rather.. it wasn't what I'm expecting from my relationship.

Sure that everyone have expectations for what they want out of a relationship. And for girls, their expectations they have are beyond the skies. It just keep increasing. And in a relationship, nothing is a need. Everything is just a want.

Sometimes, guys would try to give in to all their expectations. From a relationship to what we want, it becomes what you want. Because we all want to satisfy the other party. I never knew why does people have to lie. Now I know. There are people who cannot accept what people wants to say. They only want to hear what they want to hear.

And what the girls want.. are getting a little too much for me. Maybe it's the dramas with princes that have imaginery amount of money that can build a building just for that girl, maybe it's them not to put themselves in our shoes. Growing up.. I slowly understand what girls are, how not understanding they could be.

And now, thinking of NS is coming, the song will only relate closer and closer to me. I guess what I can do is just to wish that '下一次會有更好的情路'.

I'm suffocating under the expectations and the differences we have.

Friends are part of parcel of life. They come and they go.

I've always mention that I'm a bad friend. I don't miss my friends, and I don't bother to keep in contact with my friends. I cannot be always there for anyone. In fact, I used to have the habit of deleting people who I have not contacted for the past 6 months and will not be contacting for the next 6 months from my MSN. I have my flaws that some people might not be able to accept.

But I am a true friend. When you're good, I'll tell the whole world that you are good (Even if you are not my friend, cause it's one of my principles). When you are bullied, I will stand on your side, regardless who you are against. I will hold no ill intention in my mind or my speech against my friends. And the last person who will tease you for the wrong reason, will be me. If you have flaws, I will tell you, but I will not insult you. I will try to change you and advise, but I will not forbid you from making your own decisions, and for whatever decisions you make, I would wish you all the best. If you have a secret that need me to keep, let me know and I will treat that the conversation have never happened before. If I don't like you, I won't bother to talk to you, nor to even put up a fake face in front of you. If I could help you, I would, that is if you will not take advantage of it. Even if you are my rival, I will celebrate and congratuate you whole heartedly for your success that I could not have.

I've graduated from the polytechnic, and we all know every graduation marks the end of some friendships, and the (very soon) beginning of many new ones. In this 3 years, I've decided that I will not keep any of my friend that I have known. Probably for one, which would be Guo Jun.

It could have been more than one. However, things had happened and I've decided that I will isolate myself from what they call themselves, 'DDKs'. There were things that I do not and could not appreciate. There were things that I would like to avoid myself from getting into (again). There were things that were did that I personally will never do to my friends, because they are my friends. But what they do, or will be doing, are non of my concern anymore.  As I've isolated from the group, I will not be attending anymore meet ups. I'm sure they still will have fun anyway.

There are people I wish I could have known them better. But none of that matters now. Now, I'll wait for NS and university to come while the world continues to go round.

I've graduated! As much as I'm happy, I'm sad. Happy because that I've achieved more than what I wanted when I come into polytechnic; sad as I have to leave NYP already. NYP had been a very nice and kind place to me.

This semester had been extremely challenging. But I've managed extremely well (especially when I have wasted so much hours playing HON). Achieved my goal of scoring full distinction again. Let the picture paint a thousand of word, including my graduating GPA.


My goal, to graduate with Diploma with Merit and get into a local university. Both achieved. The bonus, I'll be awarded the Gold Medal, as the first in my cohort. Nonetheless, I'm not totally statisfied with my GPA. Comparing to the other cohorts of SIT, their gold medalists would have 4.0 with many distinctions easily. To be honest, me taking the gold medal and not having a gpa of 4.0.. People don't know how disappointed I am with myself.

I started scoring 4.0 at my second year, when someone in my cohort scored 4.0 herself in the previous semester. And before that, I had Stage Arts and was occupied with CCA. But I have to say, I had tons of fun staying in there. Between choosing GPA and Stage Arts.. this is an extremely difficult choice if one were to ask me now. I've never regretted joining Stage Arts. I am just lucky enough that I quitted at the right moment. Another semester of 3.8 would cost me a lot of things.

NYP, thanks for the 3 years. Now, to wait for another phase of life, NS, before moving on to another one, NTU/NUS.

I'm finally back from the hectic semester after 2 months and the only reason is because I have some time to spare. Such a rare opportunity it is, to have some free time.

The semester came and gone like a wind. Back then, we were all counting down to the end of semester. From 2 months and XX days, 1 months and XX days... and the semester is almost gone already. Just 2 more papers, and I have all the time on earth till NS comes.

To be honest, the thought of ns had never came this close to my mind. I am growing up too fast. Darned.

Geezus. I hate growing up.

A 2 weeks break gonna come soon, but there's 3 quiz before the 2 weeks break and 4 assignments to submit after the 2 weeks break.

Then we have 4 weeks to complete the entire project along with quiz to study.

This is one crazy semester. But somehow, I'm managing it well till now.

So so so busy. So so so tired.

Russell Loh Weibin
NYP, Financial Informatics
Has a pretty girlfriend, Angelin Tan Jie Lin!


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